Excerpt from the Awaken Heaven on Earth Spiritual Enlightenment Guidebook
May 25
© Jan 2009 by Melissa Petrusse
Chapter 10 Free-Will and Forgiveness
The group-consciousness of our 3rd dimension world of opposites chooses to learn about Love by juxtaposing it against lack-of-love, battling good and evil. Our decision to battle good and evil is the result of our fears convincing our egos we human beings are not to be trusted. Our mistrust of one another attracts conflict; our conflict then validates our fears. Seeing what we conflicted human beings are capable of, our egos understand our fears, and even justify fear side-effects like anger, shame, guilt, despair, loathing, and violence. This is how our egos try to make sane the insane.
Justifying insanity does not make it sane however. Further, justifying insanity only feeds the fear air-waves which plague our world. Our ego-ill subconscious thought system is rooted in fear and is literally insane in that it is deluded in self-doubt and self-loathing at best, and is criminally evil at worst. Thankfully, our egos can just as easily tune out the fear frequencies, as tune them in, once we realize how our thoughts direct the energy of our lives, and once we then choose to empower our lives by releasing our fear and ego-ill thoughts, to then tune into our higher-consciousness frequencies.
At this point in our guidebook, perhaps at the very least, we are now aware of our egos’ individual free-will choice to either get off of, or continue on, a roller-coaster ride between varying degrees of Heaven and hell. Honoring our own free-will choice and the free-will choice of others to ride out our Universal Cosmic Dream’s 3rd dimension roller-coaster lifestyle until we are ready and willing to unconditionally Love ourselves and others - and to do this by opening the eyes and ears of our hearts to the perfect Godliness either sleeping or Awake within the heart of everyone, this is Forgiveness. *(15)
To help us better picture what forgiveness looks like, let’s imagine we are God. We can imagine we are un-manifest Ultimate Reality God which is formless loving Light-filled Spirit, or we can imagine we are manifest God as in Father God or Mother Goddess, picturing however a joyful, loving and gentle incarnation of God or Goddess feels to us. How we choose to picture God is as individual as our own faces, though if our hearts are open to truth, the gentle, unconditionally loving and joyful feel of God is Universal.
Now let’s imagine we have a Child. Our Child God is a perfect Angel, loving and kind and all aglow with radiant Light! One day our Angel goes into a deep sleep. At some point our Angel is tossing and turning, obviously having a troubled dream. We hug our Angel tight, saying loving and comforting things like “it’s only a dream, it’s not real, you are right here in our arms. We love you. Please wake up now.” We finally accept our Angel is not going to wake up until he is ready, so we check in on our Angel often, hugging him, telling our Angel we love him, telling our Angel we accept we cannot force him to wake up, but we trust our Godly knowing which tells us he will choose to Awaken to us when he is ready. “We trust you. We know you will Awaken when you are ready. We Love you.” Again and again, everyday for a very long time, we hug our Child God and assure him with our God knowing.
Our Child God finally Awakens. By this time he has matured in everyway. Mentally, emotionally, physically our Angel is an adult now, a God in his own right. He tells us of horrible things he did in his dream, things which made him afraid to awaken for he did not feel deserving of our Love. He admitted he could hear us call to him sometimes, but that it took many different dream experiences for him to heal his fear and feel worthy of waking and enjoying our devotion. Once he was free of fear, however, he told us he was having incredible adventures filled with one awesome experience after another. At that point he was having too much fun to want to wake up. His dream-lives were AMAZING! Eventually, though he loved his dream-life experiences, a desire within him to Awaken grew stronger and stronger until he simply stopped dreaming and woke. He hugs us, jubilant and vibrant and all aglow as ever, telling us how grateful he is for his dream-life experiences, thanking us for honoring his dream-journey and not trying to force him to wake before he was ready.
In our imaginary scenario, we respected and honored Child-God’s free-will decision for dream adventures. Even when it was obvious his dreams were troubled, we accepted he would wake when he was ready. Rather then getting distraught over Child-God’s behavior, we trusted our Godly knowing that he would Awaken eventually. Our trust and Love did not waver, and the perfection of his Godliness never once dimmed, even when his dreams were troubled. A sleeping Godly Angel is still an Angel, and is still perfect in his/her Godliness whether imagining a different dream identity for themselves or not. Forgiveness is our egos releasing and tuning-out the airwaves of ego-ill to then tune-in to our hearts Godly knowing, blessing ourselves and our fellow-man with our remembrance of the perfect Child of God we all are in truth - the angelic Godly perfection we are all destined to Awaken within ourselves.
To be forgiving, however, does not mean we allow the ego-ill misery of others to coerce our egos. Here in our 3rd dimension world most of us are still a slave to ego-ill. This means most people still roller-coaster between varying degrees of Heaven and hell experiences. Some of us are so tuned into fear’s ego-ill air-waves that we are in hell almost constantly until we finally have a death experience, to then spiritually cross-over into our 4th dimension. We do not have to be in hell with others, however, to be kind and loving and helpful.
For instance, let’s imagine an angry woman screaming at her husband. She is unhappy about something he did, though she is constantly miserable so nothing he does is ever right. Her husband, tired of holding her hand in her misery, chooses to finally listen to the courage in his heart which has been telling him for a couple of years to leave. In this situation, leaving turns out to be the kindest most loving and helpful thing he could have done, for their separation was just the wake-up call she needed. She finally gets professional help, they reconcile, all is much healthier mentally and emotionally for them both, not to mention they are no longer in hell. Let’s reverse it now. Let’s say she does not wake-up, she does not get help, and they end up divorcing. He still did a kind, loving and helpful thing by following his heart, drawing a healthy boundary for himself, pursuing happiness, and being a role model for her soul to follow in some future year, or future lifetime, when she is tired of misery and needs to find the courage to move forward.
If someone in our lives is behaving in a way which makes their lives miserable, there is great truth to the saying “misery loves company.” If we choose to allow someone who is miserable to be in our midst, they will try to give their misery to us. Because we cannot hold or extend something we do not resonate with, if we are joyful the misery of others will not long last with us. Energetically circumstances will shift, and shift, and shift until we are not plagued by the misery of others. This does not mean our Love is conditional, nor does it mean we are unforgiving of another’s hell and or misery. It only means we do not resonate with their hell and or misery, so we energetically repel each other rather than attract each other. If our energy keeps repelling us away from someone, yet we stubbornly force ourselves to stick around, believing we are being kind and forgiving; yes, our ego-ill would like nothing better then to convince our egos this is forgiveness. This is not forgiveness. This is denial. This is our egos allowing the misery of others and their ego-ill, coupled with our own ego-ill which wants us to be miserable, to delude us into thinking the kind and forgiving thing to do is to sacrifice our heart’s desires in order to loyally remain with loved ones in hell.
Now let’s consider a young woman who has an alcoholic verbally abusive father. While it is beautifully forgiving of this young woman to open the eyes of her heart and view her dad as God views him - a perfect Angel in truth, deep asleep in a troubled dream where he has become an illusory opposite of his true self; forgiveness also means being able to hold and extend this beautiful truth in her heart by honoring her Free-Will’s higher-consciousness choices, rather then disconnecting from truth by listening to ego-ill. If her heart’s truth, the voice of her higher-consciousness and Godly knowing, tells her to distance herself considerably from her dad unless he chooses to get help, but her ego chooses instead to listen to the “guilt” trump card her subconscious ego-ill always plays, a key ingredient to forgiveness is missing. Forgiveness is to look, listen and act with our hearts open. If the young woman is listening to her ego-ill rather than to her higher-consciousness, she is incapable of true forgiveness. Yes she is kind, though she is deluded, not forgiving ego-ill but rather holding it, empowering it, and extending it in our world. To truly forgive her father’s ego-ill and her own, she must lead by example, listening to the Godly knowing in her heart which tells her it may take many lifetimes, but eventually her dad will wake out of his delusion and wake into his Godly inheritance of Joy and Love; in the meantime, her Godly knowing points out, she is ready for Joy now, and her soul has chosen a path towards happiness which includes walking away from enabling her dad’s misery.
Honoring her father’s free-will to come to Godliness in his own way and in his own time, plus reminding herself of his perfect Godliness outside the delusion of our 3rd dimension experience, in addition to being able to hold and extend the truth of her own perfect Godliness by looking, listening and acting with her heart, means she is being part of the solution - part of the forgiveness - of our 3rd dimension ego-ills. Forgiveness means accepting and honoring the perfect Godliness within the hearts of our free-will souls. Forgiveness means releasing and tuning-out ego-ill so that we may lead by example with our eyes and ears open to the truth in our hearts. Finally, forgiveness means holding and extending the truth of our destiny, a truth which sees past our 3rd dimension ego-ills into our future dimensions - our higher Universal Cosmic Dream dimensions - where our world is already saved.
In our willingness to forgive - our willingness to see and feel and listen to the truth - we bless our world with trust and certainty and healing relief which assures our souls cannot fail. In our higher-dimension Heavenly Earth where time has folded and all of our ego-ill conflict can barely be remembered, in this perfect world, our free-will souls are already saved. May all who read this consider taking a breath here, relaxing, focusing on our breath for a count of ten breaths; then bringing our attention to our heart-Spirit-center in the space from 2inches in front of our upper chest through to 2inches behind our upper back; we sink our conscious awareness into our hearts; and now bathe in the truth of Peace on Earth. This is forgiveness. *(16)
* Reference notes 15 - 16 can be found in our Chapter 17: Comparative Enlightenment
Part Three: Godly Enlightenment
Chapter 10 Free-Will and Forgiveness
The group-consciousness of our 3rd dimension world of opposites chooses to learn about Love by juxtaposing it against lack-of-love, battling good and evil. Our decision to battle good and evil is the result of our fears convincing our egos we human beings are not to be trusted. Our mistrust of one another attracts conflict; our conflict then validates our fears. Seeing what we conflicted human beings are capable of, our egos understand our fears, and even justify fear side-effects like anger, shame, guilt, despair, loathing, and violence. This is how our egos try to make sane the insane.
Justifying insanity does not make it sane however. Further, justifying insanity only feeds the fear air-waves which plague our world. Our ego-ill subconscious thought system is rooted in fear and is literally insane in that it is deluded in self-doubt and self-loathing at best, and is criminally evil at worst. Thankfully, our egos can just as easily tune out the fear frequencies, as tune them in, once we realize how our thoughts direct the energy of our lives, and once we then choose to empower our lives by releasing our fear and ego-ill thoughts, to then tune into our higher-consciousness frequencies.
At this point in our guidebook, perhaps at the very least, we are now aware of our egos’ individual free-will choice to either get off of, or continue on, a roller-coaster ride between varying degrees of Heaven and hell. Honoring our own free-will choice and the free-will choice of others to ride out our Universal Cosmic Dream’s 3rd dimension roller-coaster lifestyle until we are ready and willing to unconditionally Love ourselves and others - and to do this by opening the eyes and ears of our hearts to the perfect Godliness either sleeping or Awake within the heart of everyone, this is Forgiveness. *(15)
To help us better picture what forgiveness looks like, let’s imagine we are God. We can imagine we are un-manifest Ultimate Reality God which is formless loving Light-filled Spirit, or we can imagine we are manifest God as in Father God or Mother Goddess, picturing however a joyful, loving and gentle incarnation of God or Goddess feels to us. How we choose to picture God is as individual as our own faces, though if our hearts are open to truth, the gentle, unconditionally loving and joyful feel of God is Universal.
Now let’s imagine we have a Child. Our Child God is a perfect Angel, loving and kind and all aglow with radiant Light! One day our Angel goes into a deep sleep. At some point our Angel is tossing and turning, obviously having a troubled dream. We hug our Angel tight, saying loving and comforting things like “it’s only a dream, it’s not real, you are right here in our arms. We love you. Please wake up now.” We finally accept our Angel is not going to wake up until he is ready, so we check in on our Angel often, hugging him, telling our Angel we love him, telling our Angel we accept we cannot force him to wake up, but we trust our Godly knowing which tells us he will choose to Awaken to us when he is ready. “We trust you. We know you will Awaken when you are ready. We Love you.” Again and again, everyday for a very long time, we hug our Child God and assure him with our God knowing.
Our Child God finally Awakens. By this time he has matured in everyway. Mentally, emotionally, physically our Angel is an adult now, a God in his own right. He tells us of horrible things he did in his dream, things which made him afraid to awaken for he did not feel deserving of our Love. He admitted he could hear us call to him sometimes, but that it took many different dream experiences for him to heal his fear and feel worthy of waking and enjoying our devotion. Once he was free of fear, however, he told us he was having incredible adventures filled with one awesome experience after another. At that point he was having too much fun to want to wake up. His dream-lives were AMAZING! Eventually, though he loved his dream-life experiences, a desire within him to Awaken grew stronger and stronger until he simply stopped dreaming and woke. He hugs us, jubilant and vibrant and all aglow as ever, telling us how grateful he is for his dream-life experiences, thanking us for honoring his dream-journey and not trying to force him to wake before he was ready.
In our imaginary scenario, we respected and honored Child-God’s free-will decision for dream adventures. Even when it was obvious his dreams were troubled, we accepted he would wake when he was ready. Rather then getting distraught over Child-God’s behavior, we trusted our Godly knowing that he would Awaken eventually. Our trust and Love did not waver, and the perfection of his Godliness never once dimmed, even when his dreams were troubled. A sleeping Godly Angel is still an Angel, and is still perfect in his/her Godliness whether imagining a different dream identity for themselves or not. Forgiveness is our egos releasing and tuning-out the airwaves of ego-ill to then tune-in to our hearts Godly knowing, blessing ourselves and our fellow-man with our remembrance of the perfect Child of God we all are in truth - the angelic Godly perfection we are all destined to Awaken within ourselves.
To be forgiving, however, does not mean we allow the ego-ill misery of others to coerce our egos. Here in our 3rd dimension world most of us are still a slave to ego-ill. This means most people still roller-coaster between varying degrees of Heaven and hell experiences. Some of us are so tuned into fear’s ego-ill air-waves that we are in hell almost constantly until we finally have a death experience, to then spiritually cross-over into our 4th dimension. We do not have to be in hell with others, however, to be kind and loving and helpful.
For instance, let’s imagine an angry woman screaming at her husband. She is unhappy about something he did, though she is constantly miserable so nothing he does is ever right. Her husband, tired of holding her hand in her misery, chooses to finally listen to the courage in his heart which has been telling him for a couple of years to leave. In this situation, leaving turns out to be the kindest most loving and helpful thing he could have done, for their separation was just the wake-up call she needed. She finally gets professional help, they reconcile, all is much healthier mentally and emotionally for them both, not to mention they are no longer in hell. Let’s reverse it now. Let’s say she does not wake-up, she does not get help, and they end up divorcing. He still did a kind, loving and helpful thing by following his heart, drawing a healthy boundary for himself, pursuing happiness, and being a role model for her soul to follow in some future year, or future lifetime, when she is tired of misery and needs to find the courage to move forward.
If someone in our lives is behaving in a way which makes their lives miserable, there is great truth to the saying “misery loves company.” If we choose to allow someone who is miserable to be in our midst, they will try to give their misery to us. Because we cannot hold or extend something we do not resonate with, if we are joyful the misery of others will not long last with us. Energetically circumstances will shift, and shift, and shift until we are not plagued by the misery of others. This does not mean our Love is conditional, nor does it mean we are unforgiving of another’s hell and or misery. It only means we do not resonate with their hell and or misery, so we energetically repel each other rather than attract each other. If our energy keeps repelling us away from someone, yet we stubbornly force ourselves to stick around, believing we are being kind and forgiving; yes, our ego-ill would like nothing better then to convince our egos this is forgiveness. This is not forgiveness. This is denial. This is our egos allowing the misery of others and their ego-ill, coupled with our own ego-ill which wants us to be miserable, to delude us into thinking the kind and forgiving thing to do is to sacrifice our heart’s desires in order to loyally remain with loved ones in hell.
Now let’s consider a young woman who has an alcoholic verbally abusive father. While it is beautifully forgiving of this young woman to open the eyes of her heart and view her dad as God views him - a perfect Angel in truth, deep asleep in a troubled dream where he has become an illusory opposite of his true self; forgiveness also means being able to hold and extend this beautiful truth in her heart by honoring her Free-Will’s higher-consciousness choices, rather then disconnecting from truth by listening to ego-ill. If her heart’s truth, the voice of her higher-consciousness and Godly knowing, tells her to distance herself considerably from her dad unless he chooses to get help, but her ego chooses instead to listen to the “guilt” trump card her subconscious ego-ill always plays, a key ingredient to forgiveness is missing. Forgiveness is to look, listen and act with our hearts open. If the young woman is listening to her ego-ill rather than to her higher-consciousness, she is incapable of true forgiveness. Yes she is kind, though she is deluded, not forgiving ego-ill but rather holding it, empowering it, and extending it in our world. To truly forgive her father’s ego-ill and her own, she must lead by example, listening to the Godly knowing in her heart which tells her it may take many lifetimes, but eventually her dad will wake out of his delusion and wake into his Godly inheritance of Joy and Love; in the meantime, her Godly knowing points out, she is ready for Joy now, and her soul has chosen a path towards happiness which includes walking away from enabling her dad’s misery.
Honoring her father’s free-will to come to Godliness in his own way and in his own time, plus reminding herself of his perfect Godliness outside the delusion of our 3rd dimension experience, in addition to being able to hold and extend the truth of her own perfect Godliness by looking, listening and acting with her heart, means she is being part of the solution - part of the forgiveness - of our 3rd dimension ego-ills. Forgiveness means accepting and honoring the perfect Godliness within the hearts of our free-will souls. Forgiveness means releasing and tuning-out ego-ill so that we may lead by example with our eyes and ears open to the truth in our hearts. Finally, forgiveness means holding and extending the truth of our destiny, a truth which sees past our 3rd dimension ego-ills into our future dimensions - our higher Universal Cosmic Dream dimensions - where our world is already saved.
In our willingness to forgive - our willingness to see and feel and listen to the truth - we bless our world with trust and certainty and healing relief which assures our souls cannot fail. In our higher-dimension Heavenly Earth where time has folded and all of our ego-ill conflict can barely be remembered, in this perfect world, our free-will souls are already saved. May all who read this consider taking a breath here, relaxing, focusing on our breath for a count of ten breaths; then bringing our attention to our heart-Spirit-center in the space from 2inches in front of our upper chest through to 2inches behind our upper back; we sink our conscious awareness into our hearts; and now bathe in the truth of Peace on Earth. This is forgiveness. *(16)
* Reference notes 15 - 16 can be found in our Chapter 17: Comparative Enlightenment
